rings a bell

I don't wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest

Or the girl who never wants to be alone
I don't wanna be that call at four o'clock in the morning
'Cause I'm the only one you know in the world that won't be home

Aahh, the sun is blinding
I stayed up again
Oohh, I am finding
That's not the way I want my story to end

I'm safe, Up high

Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain, Inside
You're my protection
But how do I feel this good sober?

I don't wanna be the girl who has to fill the silence...
The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth
Please don't tell me that we had that conversation
When I won't remember, save your breath, 'cause what's the use?

Aahh, the night is calling
And it whispers to me softly, "come and play"
Aahh, I am falling
And if I let myself go, I'm the only one to blame

I'm safe, Up high
Nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain, Inside
You're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?

I'm comin' down, Comin' down, Comin' down
Spinnin' round, Spinnin' round, Spinnin' round
Looking for myself.. Sober

When it's good, then it's good, it's so good, 'till it goes bad
Till you're trying to find the you that you once had
I have heard myself cry
Never again
Broken down in agony
And just trying to find a friend...

PINK - "SOBER"

oblivion

disappear . blank . pause . soar . twirl . far . air . empty . light . bright . clouds . fluffy . comfort . fiction . human nature . mediocrity . hurt . point . lie . accuse . judge . permanent words . permanent harm . deliberate . disturbed . family . dark . giggles . screen . lonesomeness . illusion . sparks . laughter . beat . bruise . permanent scars . warmth . hugs . wounds . pointless . smiles . worlds . surreal . minds . thoughts . heal . cold . broken . magic . ideals . dreams . mend . distracted . unfulfillable . reality . lack . purpose . eyes . gaze . stare . soulless

Mr Time ... may you pause for just a week..
Please?

And this is the song that was stuck in my head for this week:

It makes me drift to another realm. :-)

Have not payed much attention to its lyrics tho...

I loved this:

Cambiar es aterrador. No hay manera de evitarlo. Cuando es real, duele y da miedo como nada. No puedes pretender que no es así. Pero cuando sales del otro lado del túnel, lo que originalmente se sentía mal da lugar a una versión de ti más fuerte, serena y clara.

Hoy, busca un momento tranquilo y permítete ir hacia adentro de ti. Abre tu corazón y enfrenta tus miedos. Deja que salgan a la superficie. Siéntelos. Esto hará que pierdan poder, dándote espacio para enfrentar tus fantasías.

(its the kabbalah mail thingy for today)

Act to see change...

"If you keep doing what you've always done, you'll keep getting what you've always gotten"

this is definitely NOT just a corny video.

DEEPLY INSPIRING, WATCH IT. :-)
I've seen this a few times before.
Seeing it makes me treasure life and what I have a lot more.

Halloween- Flapper Costume-

I was a flapper for halloween. :-)

I bought the costume @ last minute and my sister did my make up.

You can't really see the whole costume or colors in these pics, I'll upload one soon enough.

Oooh, I found old pics

9 months old.

Couple of months old. // I know, looks like some other baby.
But yeah, thats baby roxy.



Caught escaping. O.O !

The first snowman I remember.
Its My lil brother, my sis, mom and dad. The other guy is
Licey, Leecy, Lici, or however our cousin's name is spelled, which was over on vacation.

have our parents heard of picnic blankets????

look at our faces. Itchy irritated lil woman.

Day light savings change

yo sintiendo la noche taaaaan larga...

pensando... "pero es que el tiempo no corre?"

Nop. El tiempo se frizo por una hora.

how magical is that?!

Random Thought... | Intertwined |

como que... le coji cariño si.

Random data from last night.

AMAYA SENIALA UN POSTER EN EL SUBWAY

AMAYA - Ayyyy me gusta ese kerning!!

GRACE -¿Cuál, el morenito?

>pop<
Rude awakening. Forced out of my cozy warm bubble.

carefree...

...then finally she looks in the mirror, and she is in peace with those eyes looking back at her. The face is wearing a smile as usual... but there is something about it today. Its authentic.

She is happy.

sharing a bubble...

human - isolation - seconds - breaths - smiles - energy - heartbeats - whispers - cuddles - sheets - lust - skin - hours - days - time - words - comprehension - water - stories - real - >pop <-

Secret Heart

Secret heart
What are you made of
What are you so afraid of
Could it be
Three simple words
Or the fear of being overheard
What's wrong

Let em' in on your secret heart

Secret Heart
Why so mysterious
Why so sacred
Why so serious
Maybe you're
Just acting tough
Maybe you're just not man enough
What's wrong

Let em' in on your secret heart

This very secret
That you're trying to conceal
Is the very same one
That You're dying to reveal
Go tell him how you feel

Secret heart come out and share it
This loneliness, few can bear it
Could it have something to do with
Admitting that you just can't go through it alone?

Let em' in on your secret heart

This very secret
That you're trying to conceal
Is the very same one
That you're dying to reveal
Go tell him how you feel
This very secret heart

Go out and share it
This very secret heart


Song by Feist

Kabbalah Mail thingy for saturday:

"...Hoy aférrate a tu espíritu. Todo lo demás es efímero."

...and I'd rather fuck the truth, than make love to a lie.

To that inner me...

that one that acts before she thinks.

just a lil reminder dear little roxy.

yes, you and I have decided we are not religious.
but we must stand firm on our life philosophy which

consists in not hurting anyone or ourselves.

Is there anyway we might be about to bend that with a "convenient excuse."?

...

No sweetie, No excuses.

hard?

its not hard... think about the consequences.

I think that will be enough motivation.

Lets work on some integrity.

deep little impulses + alcohol = __________.

Advice On Men by Oprah Winfrey

This is the type of advice people (or I) usually take for granted, the "yeah,-I-already-knew-that" kind of thing. However this is just the best advice on men ever. Most of these things I've come to learn realize "the hard way", yet I keep tripping over them. Really letting it actually sink in prevents tons of needless suffering.

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.

If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.*

Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.***

Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.*

Slower is better.***

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't 'be friends'. A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.***

Don't settle.

If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is

Don't stay because you think 'it will get better'

You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.

He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.

Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.***

You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.**

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are.... (lol)

Even if he has more education or in a better job.

Do not make him into a quasi-god.***

He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow someone else's man.

A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the bending...***

Compromise is two way street.

You need time to heal between relationships...*

There is nothing cute about baggage....

Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship

You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...

A relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...***

Look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.

Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted

Never move into his mother's house. Never co-sign for a man.

Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.

Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

Scared of being alone*** is what makes a lot of women stay in relationships that are abusive or hurtful: Dr. Phil

You should know that:

You're the best thing that could ever happen to anyone and if a man mistreats you, he'll miss out on a good thing. If he was attracted to you in the 1st place, just know that he's not the only one.

They're all watching you, so you have a lot of choices.

Make the right one.

Ladies take care of your own hearts....

Share this with other women and men (just so they know)...

You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices, and another woman prepare.

then one day she realized there was no small scratch to tongue...
it hadn't been there for a while ... when did it heal? How did I not notice?
WHO CARES IT HEALED!!!!!
Awesome, its like headaches, you don't exactly notice when they go away.
they just do...

to cut or not to cut...

temporary powerlessness

Today I let the unlucky events of the day take the best of me, as the mixed feelings of sadness, frustration and powerlessness overpowered me. I felt the urge to cry... then that urge became an urge to smash something expensive, to scream into a pillow. Then I saw this quote:

"complaining is silly, either act or forget."

I remembered all those thoughts of change I felt when I saw it...

I felt this strong anger mixed with sadness just because ONE day didn't go so well?

suddenly my anger didn't make sense anymore.

I didn't cry, I did not break anything, I did not scream.

This is life, learning to control these emotions.

Shit happens.

and life goes on.

Im going Apple Picking on sunday with my sister!

Im so excited :-)

Then it becomes your world too :-)

a feeling

Like the tiny little bubbles that cover the inside of a glass of soda...

but in this case all over my skin :-)

YES I WANTED SOUR CANDY AT 10PM.

simple little things

He said she sounded pretty

when she said "at lunch time".

She asked what's so special about it?

He answered "It came from you."

:-)

Recuerdame

...

cuando mires a los ojos del pasado
cuando ya no amanezca en tus brazos
y que seas invisible para mi para mi.

Recuerdame amándote
mirándote a los ojos
atándome a tu vida
recuerdame amándote
esperándome tranquila
sin rencores sin medidas
recuerdame recuerdame
que mi alma está tatuada en tu piel.

...

[song fragment]

I love Marc Anthony =P